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There was a time when I was so devastated by grief that intention was not part of my vocabulary. I wasn't making thoughtful choices. I was simply trying to survive the day in front of me. Looking back, i can see the sum of the choices I made we're not good ones. They weren't careful or planned. They didn't reflect the person I believe myself to be. And for a long time, i carried shame for that. But here is the truth I've come to understand: Those choices may have been the very thing that kept me alive. When grief is heavy, We don't always choose wisely, But sometimes we choose enough. Enough to get through the night. Enough to keep breathing. Enough to put one foot in front of the other, when standing still feels impossible. We're often quick to beat ourselves up for the decisions we made in our darkest moments. We replay them. We judge them. We ask ourselves how we could have done better. Yet rarely do we pause to ask a gentler question ... What if that choice was the best alternative I had at the time? Living with intention doesn't always begins with strength. Sometimes it begins with survival. Sometimes intention looks like choosing to keep going, even when we don't know where we're headed. For me, these imperfect choices gave me something unexpected, a drive! A quiet pull forward. Over time, That pull led me back home. Back to the place where intention could solely take root again. Healing does not arrive all at once. It comes in small steps, at times barely noticeable. Some days it was just choosing not to quit. And then, one day without warning, I woke up! Not healed, Not finished, But awake! I realize i'm thinking differently, choosing differently. Living with more care than before. I can read again, i can understand what I read. I can drive without crying, i can look people in the face, i can see and understand they're hurt that couldn't be seen before. I feel like I'm living with more care than before. Living with intention is not about never making mistakes. It's about meeting ourselves with compassion, it's about recognizing that even our broken choices can carry us forward. Take the small steps, Make the best choice you can make today, Even if it's imperfect! Someday, You will wake up and you will see how far those small choices brought you, just as I am seeing and feeling today. What honors grief and survival can become intention, and intention has a way of leading us home.